Living with 'big' body

When I was 12 years old, my weight was 80 kg (I think the biggest among my batchmate).

For some people, being fat is a blessing (no offense), others might think being fat is something distressing. My thought was the second one.

For me it was soooooooooo distressing, especially when I wanted to find attire either clothes, pants, shoes and even stocking. I need to go to adult section even I was only 12 years old.

And sometimes, even in the adult section, I can't even find my size.....*sighhhhhhh*

I was so jealous looking at my friends. They all have 12 year old kid kind of look but me, I'm just a fat, ugly looking, middle-aged boy. (This all within my head)

"You'll remember what make you hurts, what make you happy"

Trust me, you'll lose all your confidence because you're insecure with your body. (For me)

My curricular activity is accountable. Rarely participate in extracurricular activities. When I wanna join some group of my friends, my mind always has thought that I'll be teased by my friends about my bodyweight.

Remember this,

Obesity could take away your happiness, makes you insecure and tear away your confident

But 

YOU CAN STAY BEING OBESE or LOSE ALL THOSE STUBBORN FREAKING FAT AND CLAIM YOUR CONFIDENT BACK

THE CHOICE IS ALL YOURS!!!!!

p/s: that was me with my late father (my father looks younger than me...lol)

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